After this opened Job his mouth, and cursed his day. And Job spoke, and said, Let the day perish wherein I was born, and the night in which it was said, there is a man child conceived. Let that day be darkness; let not God regard it from above, neither let the light shine upon it.
Job 3:1-4
There is a story in a book written about the life of Dietrich Bonhoeffer (who was murdered by the Nazi’s during the Holocaust). There were four innocent men being hung. Someone asked another man standing next to him, “Where is God in all of this.” The other man’s reply was, “Up there, on the gallows with them.”
One may ask, “How could God be with them when they were being hung?” The truth is that God was with them before they were born, was with them during life and was with them in death.
Job, in his misery, wished that the day of birth had never taken place; so much so that he cursed the day. If pain and misery is bad enough it will cause one to seek relief and if it is really, really bad it will cause one to say and do things that one would otherwise never say and do. Job was in such pain that he wished to die.
As a pastor I have visited such people in their homes and in hospitals and it was not pleasant. If I had any empathy at all, I began to hurt with them and my prayer was that God would be merciful to them.
If you have come to the place where you wonder where God is; never doubt it, God is right there with you. You may have had to walk by faith, not sensing or seeing the hand of God in your condition, but He is with you right now. He promised to never leave you nor forsake you and His Word is forever true and settled in heaven.
You may not sense His hand but His heart is for you—right now. Job would eventually come to realize that God had not deserted him and so will you. Just trust! God knows what is happening in your life. Amen.